Falling Out Of The Rotten Tree

Poem: "Breathe Again"

2011-09-20T02:22:00.001-05:00

"Breathe Again"
- for M.

The warmth of sunlight
on your perfect skin
the way your eyes light up
when they gaze into mine
the moment of forever
as I lay here next to you

The small things we share
words left unsaid
as you sleep your arms
draped across my naked chest

A small sigh of contentment escapes
and for the first time in a while
I can breathe again.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Trace"

2011-08-19T01:39:00.000-05:00

"Trace"

Forever is a desperate lie
that we tell ourselves
to try and fix the million pinpricks
threatening to burn our corneas

This almost was
is nothing
but a boiling pot
of disappointment

The quiet darkness
that pierces my restless underbelly
of well-intentioned self-loathing
is the only real thing I have left

To cling to
amidst the deafening roar
of the tides
rising in my bleeding ears

As I lie motionless on the ground
waiting for you to deliver
the mortal blow.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Only We"

2011-08-11T01:21:00.003-05:00

"Only We"

The stars in all their glory
dance in the sky
above us

As my hand trembles
caught in the moment
as I take yours
without a word

I wanna hold you
like a second skin
I wanna drink you
like wine

I wanna sing along
to the chorus
of our beating hearts
watching the leaves drift off
in the wind

I long for the time
where your kiss
will linger upon my lips
and nothing remains

Only we and where we
were always meant to be.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Day That Never Was"

2011-08-08T17:24:00.000-05:00

"The Day That Never Was"

The tears have nearly dried
the rays of the day sun has faded
whispers between the sheets
the heart has gone cold

As memories cling desperately
to the corners of the mind
I long to reach out
to find you beside me again

But the silence
is deafening
goodbye is nothing more
than a grinding of teeth
and clenching of fists.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Pages Torn"

2011-08-05T02:24:00.000-05:00

"The Pages Torn"

The stones are no place
dawn has been exiled
by sultry dark
as the sky watches
in agony

The silence pervades
tiny corners of my mind
as I close my eyes
these hands reach out
to hold onto
what's left of you and I

These words
are all that remain behind
old pages torn
stained with tears and regret

The beauty that was once shared
between us is as distant a memory
as the tides that crash and die against
the bleeding shore
at final light.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Losing"

2011-07-26T00:50:00.000-05:00

"Losing"

Empty coffee cup
stale air of defeat
pride is failing
death is so inviting

Gone are the days
when we were young
and life was so full of
dreams and yearning

Life is a shadow
of misguided steps
not so carefully taken
stumbling towards
finality

Reaching out for you
so far away now
as I close my eyes
wishing to be taken

Giving up seems like
such a perfect escape.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Want To Be"

2011-07-10T13:50:00.000-05:00

"Want To Be"

The one you wake up next to
every morning
the spring in your step
the song in your heart

The sky, the stars
and every beautiful thing
in the world

The thought that
you can't get out of your mind
the one desire you can't get enough of

The love that you've always wanted

These are just some of the things
I want to be for you
someday.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Light"

2011-07-10T13:37:00.001-05:00

"The Light"

The warmth of sunshine on your bare skin
the way you lie against me
the shape of your smile
the scent of your perfume as it lingers in the air
long after you've gone

The emptiness now
makes my bones ache
and the memories of
unbridled need and passion
ended too soon

Your breath
as the light shines
one final time
and eternity embraces you
like a long lost lover

As I watch silently
my heart breaks
into a million
pretty little fragments.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "In The Waning Hours"

2011-06-29T16:12:00.000-05:00

"In The Waning Hours"

Where the emptiness fades
and the stink of alcohol subsides
long enough for one final
blood curdling howl

The memory of the deceased sun
is replaced by the cold fingers
of restless night

Like a vulture, it will stalk you
and wait in the shadows
ready to sink its teeth
and drink the marrow
of your lovely despair

And in the waning hours
as life escapes and the blood
paints the awful ground
nothingness will rush to embrace you
like a long lost mistress.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "A Desperate Man"

2011-06-25T16:17:00.000-05:00

"A Desperate Man"

I'm falling in and out
towards the inescapable reality
that is my fading inhibition
if these words are all I have

I pray that you stop a moment
to indulge my idiosyncracy

Your mouth is a veil
I long to penetrate
yet the stars have not yet
revealed their true disdain

If I cannot possess the secret
to your womanly depths
I'd rather stay here
and quietly long for you

As the night comes slowly
to envelop my lovely pain
in her shadowy embrace.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "You Don't"

2011-06-01T08:57:00.000-05:00

"You Don't"

You don't see the pain that hides
beneath the soft smile from the
corners of my mouth

You don't feel
the regret I cling to
in my most private moments

You don't know
the hell I would go through
just to have you
to call my own

But what you do know
may end up hurting us both
more in the end

Adieu, sweet demise of mine.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Remembering The Horses"

2011-05-27T22:21:00.000-05:00

"Remembering The Horses"

Cold sweat
awoken suddenly
from the empty nothing
gnawing at my insides

Staring into the distance
the wind howls
erasing traces of what was
revealing the lie
hiding beneath
all those years ago

Cut me deep
let me go
allow the pain to consume
as the devils in my head
laugh in derision

The final memory left
was the music of your voice
that faded smile
as the rain wept in silence

I remember the cry
of beautiful horses
as they lie
on the cold earth
dying.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Lines That Do Not Fade"

2011-05-24T22:27:00.000-05:00

"The Lines That Do Not Fade"

Red splotches on the floor
arms spread wide
silence choking the air all around
dusty walls watch in unabated weak

The words tumble slowly
chest heaving
lips tentatively parted
a final gesture

Eyes nod toward
a door as it creaks open
memories depart with the wind
in one defiant, rumble
of regret

The lines that do not fade
echo with you
a haunting reminder
of what never was.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Can't"

2011-05-19T16:55:00.000-05:00

"Can't"

The silence of your gaze
as it penetrates my insides
your lips, taunt with longing
as a single breath escapes

Gingerly
can't let go
beyond the abyss

Into the fire
of snarling pain
and bliss..

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Sweet Demise"

2011-03-10T05:15:00.000-06:00

"Sweet Demise"

If I ran my hands up the length of your dress
a subtle glance, a sweet caress
would you come to the door
is unspoken desire too much to ignore

Touch, kiss
your lips
my mouth

My hands
our bodies
your thighs spread
desire beckons like a siren
as we succumb

Your love is my sweet demise.

Copyright: 2011, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Locked Door"

2010-12-04T23:34:00.003-06:00

"The Locked Door"

Falling into
a gasping breath
memories fade
in the gaping wound
of never

Your kiss
upon my desperate mouth
lingers like the shadows
in the misty-eyed
farewell

Of a goodbye that
should have never
been uttered
in soft, teary whispers

Gone.. gone.. gone.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Separated"

2010-08-30T09:03:00.001-05:00

"Separated"

Underneath the discontented sky
where feeling ends
and the silent horror builds
such a perfect child
waiting to be held

Her small frame
shaking violently
like a twisted reed
in the wind

I cannot go back
as much as I would want to
it's over now, the darkness
looming with ethereal triumph

As I lay here motionless
the blood in my veins
has run cold
as my face contorts
in a final scream
never uttered.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "She and Him"

2010-07-16T21:11:00.000-05:00

"She and Him"

She:

I am more than just a pretty face
arms, long legs
and a vagina

You make me ache so bad
it hurts to cross my legs
dust off your lust
from the corner shelf

Oh baby, I know you will
do it, right here and now
invade my private space
with your dirty thoughts
longing to leak out

Him:

Bated breath in my chest
as the moon illuminates
your perfect nakedness
warmth against mine

The world falls away
as inhibition fades
the discourse of
passionate surrender
envelops the silence
overtaking the roaring
of the neglected tides
of ambivalent Fate.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Goodbye"

2010-07-16T20:48:00.000-05:00

"Goodbye"

You take
and take
with selfish hands
and harsh words

Cutting my heart out
as I bleed
slumped on the floor
body fading

All the forgotten time
is gone now
like the silent wind
rustling the leaves

As the white wolf howls
the door creaks open
and life rushes out of me

Like a lover scorned
the laughter escapes from
within as I exhale
one defiant last breath
middle finger raised

Farewell
my favorite mistake
goodbye.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Never Fade"

2010-07-13T19:09:00.000-05:00

"Never Fade"

The sun won't shine
quite as brightly
the music is gone
replaced by uncomfortable silence

You were a shooting star
so beautiful and vibrant
why did you have to burn
out so soon?

I'll carry your memory
with me forever
and the love you shared
will never be forgotten

I love you, dear one
Never fade away

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "On The Run"

2010-07-13T16:09:00.000-05:00

"On The Run"

She smiled as
the door closed
behind her
this was the last
time

Falling away
forgetting to breathe
my lungs take you
in
once more

Step outside
into the waiting arms
of the shadowy velvet
winking murder

Blood so hot
it races in your
expectant veins
like a underpaid
whore

Take me far
from this place
of desolation
and feverish
sweet pain

Until the lure
of your possessive embrace
ensnares me again
just for old times sake

Spread your thighs
wide
and let the ripe air
drink your wanton desire

As you throw your head back in ecstasy
let me in
watching your every moment

My inhibition is gone
always
on the run.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Holding On"

2010-07-13T08:24:00.000-05:00

"Holding On"

Everybody's on the run
gripping tightly at the wheel
chasing the setting of the sun
moment with you I want to steal

If you decide that it's best to leave
the darkness threatening to come in
my broken heart won't get a reprieve
being without you is the greatest sin

Holding on
but you're on the run
holding on
but you're on the run

Gone now
lost without you
but I'm still...

Holding on.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Fuck Chaucer"

2010-07-10T15:27:00.000-05:00

"Fuck Chaucer"
- for Bukowski.

At the old joint
on the corner of
Hollywood and Vine
where the homeless scatter the street
like flies with their shit stained pants
and wrinkled upturned, gleaming teeth

"Spare some change, fella?," he asks

I ignore him and keep walking
lost in thought, my mind rambles
to the moment of the open door
when I caught my woman
in bed with another
fresh faced dancer
burying her tongue deep inside
her nether parts

"The bitch", I thought
oh, how I wanted to yell
and stomp and kick her
cheating ass out
and onto the cold, hard street

But no, like a pauper
I left without a word
went down the stairs
as Sinatra played
on the old transistor radio

"I'm fucking up," I said to myself
lighting up a cigarette
and taking in the cool night air
with each anxious breath
ever closer to the climax
of pathetic hands
on the jarring wheel.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Want"

2010-07-10T07:26:00.000-05:00

"Want"

Your lips
the softness of your mouth
the sweet taste of your kiss
lingering in the aftermath

Your smile
the music of your laugh
the magnetic pull of
your radiant eyes

Your subtle touch
every beautiful curve
of your sensual body

I want you feel
your love so deep inside
the desire coming out
in the moment of our
inevitable intersection.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Resistance"

2010-07-04T14:11:00.002-05:00

I.

In the days of before
when men died and bled
courage gained nevermore
it's all been done and said

II.

The sky ominous and black
soldiers with their stone faces
never to find a soul they lack
only to go into desperate places

III.

Walk subtle on hallowed ground
a newborn baby cries, freed from mother's womb
lest the agony of one's screams make a tortured sound
love me a moment longer from our beautiful tomb.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Hot Shower and Vodka"

2010-07-04T13:34:00.000-05:00

"Hot Shower and Vodka"

HE:

I called you on the line
three rings
no one home
been on my mind

I'm tired of sitting home
need your kind of trouble
tonight

SHE:

Step inside
my private space
to share together
a stolen moment
with you

Wet skin
subtle embrace
a kiss
ever softly

An unspoken invitation
of what could be

HE:

Hot and sticky
the hunger burns
through our desire
consuming us
in its path

Unfold slowly
stay with me now
under the cascade of water
and drink me

Until your thirst is satisfied.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "White Flag"

2010-07-03T18:49:00.000-05:00

"White Flag"

Rainy night
dark and cold
teeth chatter
breath on the window
of an infallible chasm

Towards inescapable
parting
as my flag of last resistance
lies smoldering

You stand before me
destiny in a bridal gown
your embrace engulfs me
in inevitable intersection

The feel of your tectonic plates
as I surrender
drowning in a sea
of molten desire.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Shake My Tree"

2010-07-01T21:52:00.001-05:00

"Shake My Tree"

Her eyes, beautiful and bright
swept across the sea of faces
in the room
her hips swaying as she walked
towards the bar

She lit a cigarette
and leaned over to
the bartender
and whispered something in her ear
her voice, a whisper in the wind

All the desire in the world
could never tame her
I did not have in me
to give her what she wanted

And yet, she smiled in my direction and said:

Come on, baby
I know you want me
shake my tree
let my body set your inhibitions free
because if you're good
I'll let you in for a night
fuck me like I think you should
because you can't resist me, try as you might

Come on, baby
shake my tree.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Dust and Promises"

2010-07-01T19:13:00.001-05:00

"Dust and Promises"

Come closer, she said
with a knowing smile
moving towards me
with the trained grace
of a ballet dancer

Desire is a blade
that cuts too close
to my fragile skin
the blood on my hands
falling away
in desperate pieces

When all I wanted
was your touch
as the sun sets
all we shared

Fades away
until all that is left
is dust and
unfulfilled promises.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Horizon"

2010-06-27T06:48:00.000-05:00

"Horizon"

SHE:

Lying in this cold, empty bed
all the warmth is gone
but still
I look for you
in the shadows
of unknown dark

Even now
the fire burns bright
as you threaten to consume me whole
how I need you still

HE:

Trapped in this
cocoon of loneliness
the days blur into one another
as I struggle to make sense of
life without you

SHE:

Memories of you
cling to me
like whispers in the wind
as I look out the window
I desperately want to see
you standing there
waiting for me

Just once more
for old times' sake

HE:

I've been floating adrift
all these lost years
without you
holding onto hope
and praying
to a God who's remained
silently watching our drama unfold
that you would come back to me

SHE:

I never stopped loving you
you've given me joy beyond compare
and nothing in this world matters
more to me than you

HE:

Right here, right now
I look to the sky
and close my eyes
as your love fills the air I breathe

Take me with you
never let go
ever again

I need you, I love you, I want you
when you wake, I shall wait there for you
and long for the moment to begin
when we can share our forever after.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Walk Away (Don't Go)"

2010-06-20T06:52:00.000-05:00

"Walk Away (Don't Go)"

The sky
so open and yet
so achingly distant

As I wake up
the glaring light
from new day
blinds me
for a moment

You left
without a word
or a goodbye

The sweetness of your kiss
the way you felt against me
meant everything to me

And as I close my eyes,
in the stillness of the moment
as I watch the world unfold

I see your face
one more time
as I reach out
longing for you

I fall to the cold ground
as darkness envelops all around
swallowing me whole.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Bridging The Gap"

2010-06-15T17:05:00.000-05:00

"Bridging The Gap

HE:

I lay here
in this cold space
the memory
of the beautiful lines
of your perfect form
burned forever
into my brain

I reach out to you
hoping to touch
a piece of heaven
but you are gone

Still I hold onto you
as fragments of what we shared
now replaced by distance
haunt my mind
like a familiar black and white

SHE:

Every moment away
from you seems forced
I'm condemned to
live a forlorn existence

If I could
just hear your voice
trace the lines of your face
drown in your embrace
as we fall towards the bed
our bodies intertwined in desperate need
if just once, our permanent fate
let it be so

HE:

The night sky
seems empty
the rain soaks me
to the bone

I am a wayward soul
without the compass of your love
to guide me home

If I never see you again
Please know
that nothing in this world
or the aftermath
could keep me
from you

SHE:

As I watch the sun rise
My thoughts fly to you
where ever you may be
longing to join our hearts
once more

Mutual devotion
inescapable
as our love
bridges the gap.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Crescendo"

2010-06-13T19:27:00.000-05:00

"Crescendo"

NEED:

Your subtle charms
the glimmer of forever
in your beautiful gaze
the way your simple touch
changes everything

DESIRE:

A quiet space to share
daydreams of you
just because
to feel your warmth
beside me

As our bodies intertwine
in unspoken devotion
illuminated by perfect moonlight
the passion rises
in the shadows
of unbridled want.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Burning"

2010-06-13T17:26:00.000-05:00

"The Burning"

If subtle light
from death of former day
threaten to overtake
the oncoming night
lesser souls will fail
and weaker hearts
falter in their noble
resolve

A final candle burns quietly
in the empty space we longed to share
though you are far away
your beauty is etched in my cold heart

And I shall wait here
for you
as your last kiss
lingers still
on my desperate mouth

The only thing you left behind
was this note:

"The beauty of the stars may fade
and oceans rise and die
but my love for you
will always remain."

Until you come back
the burning of my restless heart
will go on
someday, leading you
home
in my arms again forever.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: “As Luck Would Have It”

2010-03-31T22:54:00.001-05:00

“As Luck Would Have It”

The night air howls

as the darkness settles in

with its bluish incandescent light

shimmering against my face

The bed is cold now

sleep comes like a phantom

stirring up the lovely bones

pieces of what was remain

Forever trapped inside

wanting to come out

at the seams

Sitting at the old desk

as I try to make sense

of my state of disarray

a candle burns defiantly

I am not the same

life has lost its luster

the flowers once in bloom

lay dead now in my hands

If I had the words

that would make you stay

so you would know

what was inside

I’d run into your waiting embrace

my lips aching to kiss yours

to hold you and feel the warmth

of your body against mine

And whisper:

“please come home

my love

how I need you so.”

Poem: "Away"

2010-03-29T22:51:00.000-05:00

“Away”

HE:

Time apart from you

is torture that my fragile heart

can’t bear for too long

to the point that

I can’t breathe

SHE:

I count the days

while you are gone

and my brain wraps itself

around you like a cocoon

not wanting to let go

HE:

The sun light seems to flicker and fade

as the darkness within my quiet spaces

is slowly overtaken

cannot find a way out

SHE:

The greatest sin

Has not been loving you

because you make

everything I do seem easy

But, if you must know,

missing you has become

the cause of my unraveling

and I need you still

more than I can ever say

Don’t go away.

Poem: "The Boy Standing In The Middle of The Tracks"

2010-03-29T15:44:00.000-05:00

“The Boy Standing In The Middle of The Tracks”

The peculiar lump in his throat

subtle changes in the wind

against his bare skin

reminds me

of how small he is

The lights are blinding

as he closes his eyes shut

a strange smile creeps up

around the corners

Somewhere far away

a young woman lies in bed

wide awake

her mind racing

her brain swimming

With thoughts of him

his intense stare

his quiet, careful words

and the way he touched her

with his reluctant smile

The darkness is a comforting bedfellow

soon, there will be nothing left

not even a memory to hold onto

But in her heart, she somehow knew

that the boy standing in the middle of the tracks that night

loved her with all of the desperation and longing he could muster

and she smiles and closes her eyes one final time, whispering:

“It was more than enough.”

Poem: “Someday Forever”

2010-03-28T19:09:00.004-05:00

“Someday Forever”

HE:

Life is beautifully strange

never knew anything

but the dark lonely spaces

that have become my bedfellows

I close my eyes

and breathe you in deeply

the holes in my heart

have somehow faded

Into the background

nothing but white noise

until the only sound heard

is the slow rhythm of

your perfect heart

I am ready for you

just want the end

to go away

so we can have our small opening

to finally begin this dance of ours

SHE:

I’ve lusted before

given of my flesh

and desire to others

who were less deserving

of my womanly gifts

But nothing comes close

to what you’ve asked me

to share with you

my brain is drunk

from your subtle charms

And dreams of you cling

to my skin

refusing to let go

my craving for you

relentless

HE:

You awaken the tomb of my senses

and rekindle the flame I thought once lost

I want to crawl under your soft, sweet skin

only to consume your soul

until every inch of your being is mine

SHE:

The temptation of what we could have

is too much for my stubborn mind and fragile heart

to ignore any longer

Kiss me deeply

envelop me in the promise

of your embrace

until our mutual longing threatens

to overtake us

in the inevitable collision

I want to be

your someday

forever.

Poem: "R-rated"

2010-03-26T08:31:00.001-05:00

“R-rated”

Be afraid when something laughs

near a bonfire

before the midnight ritual of

hanging gnomes has been

improperly conducted

Never slight a one-eyed jockey

in the shins

lest the transmission backfires

blinding you from the lovely shapes

dancing on the hood

Utter in whispers the last rumors you heard

about the corn spread

in dusty crop circles

depicting the return of

the despicable seaman

Waiting to take spaghetti noodles away

off the humps of weary camels

trying to pass through

the needle of playful smirking

ice caps.

Poem: "Brokeback Lusted"

2010-03-26T08:30:00.000-05:00

“Brokeback Lusted”

I’m not looking to make it into Heaven tonight

she said with a knowing smile

I just want someone to warm me up

and rev up my idle engine tonight

I’m not looking to get into Hell at the moment

I just want a good time

she said with a sly wink as she slowly licked her lips

Lord knows that I’ve already got the Devil

between my thighs

if you’d just take the time to look up my skirt

If I give into desire right now

and we share a moment

of inevitable intersection

would you still want me enough

To remember my name in the morning after?

Poem: "The Last Beautiful Line"

2010-03-26T08:29:00.000-05:00

“The Last Beautiful Line”

If you must go,

I ask only that you leave

a note

and use the front door

don’t bother looking back

If you must lie,

tell me that you never wanted me

and only watched in horror as

the wheels of deceit came crashing down

If you must dream,

let the oceans of your mind

envelop your restless heart

long enough to stifle the Indian summer

If you must die

allow me to write the words

of longing upon your heart

with my aching kiss and fervent touch

never to forget you

pouring over the last beautiful line

that was you.

Poem: "Into The Sinking"

2010-03-26T08:27:00.000-05:00

“Into The Sinking”

HE:

The room spins

my head feels as

it’s about to explode

as I sit in this chair

words slither from the

cracks of my mind

It’s so different

everything unusually dull and tainted

since you left

SHE:

I’ve lost my way a bit

nothing’s come easy

since I found the courage to walk out that door

and not look back

I honestly don’t miss you

you were the one addiction

that I had to break

although I’d be a liar if I didn’t admit

that there were things about you

that I still desperately crave

Like the way your skin feels when you were pressed against me

the warmth and safety of your ever-present embrace

and the way you made my heart thud with each gasping breath

whenever we kissed

These small stolen moments with you shared

keep me up at night

HE:

I wish that we could go

to simpler times

when we’d share a laugh

a simple glance

a fleeting touch

Back then, that’s all it took for you and me

the fire that brought us together has faded

without you, everything seems a heavy burden

and I don’t believe I’ve paid the price

Enough for you to pull me out and save me

from the sinking.

Poem: "Gathering Stones"

2010-03-26T08:17:00.006-05:00

“Gathering Stones”

Thunder looming overhead

the springtime of my demise

draws nearer with each breath

to the point I can no longer bear it

The seething vantage point stares back

with hollow, crimson eyes

until the voice of despair

cackles with unbridled disdain

The world as I knew it is ending

as the grave calls to me in my unfit sleep

my arms grow weary from the fight

my strength is nothing now

So I smile and nod

and, without a single word,

gather stones to throw in into the storm

when my bright chasm is over.

Poem: "She Said"

2010-03-26T08:16:00.005-05:00

“She Said”

She said

that she was tired of it all

was leaving everything behind

with nary a backward glance

It used to be so easy

to close her eyes

and dream of chasing the sunshine

in the middle of springtime

with everything in bloom

During the day

she visits his grave

and spends a few hours

in quiet conversation

She takes long walks now

her long hair blowing

wildly in the wind

as she smiles at

the people passing by

Then the night comes

with its silent allure

she lies in the bed

longing for his warmth

to return

If only she bid goodbye

before it was too late

for her heart

is past the break point.

Poem: "Day"

2010-03-23T22:32:00.005-05:00

“Day”

Nothing makes sense

the sun is shining backwards

I have acquired a taste for you

and well-placed sarcastic one-liners

Warmth emanates from the oddest places

a couple dumpster drives in an nearby alley

as rats scurry in haste lest they be trampled underfoot

random strangers exchange looks and knowingly snicker

As I lay in bed

thinking of all the things

that we could do

I grab my pants

and an old shirt

wash my dirty face

and head out the door

The phone begins to ring.

Poem: "The Burning of Forever"

2010-03-12T16:44:00.001-06:00

"The Burning of Forever"

Dearest _________,

I cannot go on like this
while the sun fades
and silent pain washes over my broken heart
oh, if you could just see my eyes
before you had to say goodbye

Memories of you
haunt my sleep
and laugh in my face
in my lonely moments
of desperation

If I could burn a candle
and hold you close
once more
maybe I could learn

to stop the burning of forever
that threatens to swallow
the last vestiges of hope

how I love you still..

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Nothing Ventured But The Sky"

2010-01-19T23:27:00.000-06:00

"Nothing Ventured But The Sky"

To tempt fate would be
impossibly foolish and yet
here I am again like the old hag
that I have so loathed to become

The velvet splendor of youth and possibility
is gone
behind me now like a meandering road
caked in ruin and despair

She was
only a brief glimpse
mere snapshots
to be certain
memorable yet fleeting
at once

The prettiest thing
about a woman
is her tongue

The sun and its veiled corpse
of unearned promises and obituaries
does nothing to stem the tide
of horror and unkempt deceit

Her mouth upon mine
tastes like ashes before the belfry tower
trapped in a cocoon of longing and
forbidden fruit

Until I awake
bathed in sweat and agony
dying and lonely
just another tick
on God's scoreboard.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Distance"

2010-01-19T23:11:00.000-06:00

"The Distance"

Night is in bloom now
the stars streak across the sky
as the world is quiet
sleep does not come calling
the dream fades into

Jaded shards of black
broken glass and hollow screams
the bed, once warm and comforting
is now forlorn and desolate

I cannot give you
whatever it was you wanted
I cannot sing the lullaby
to tame your restless heart

All I ever gave was my love
and that was not good enough
please let me waste away
in the bitter taste of my sea of woe and regret

For if forever may come too late
my soul shall never see
the heaven that was to be
you and I.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Mirage"

2009-08-24T21:34:00.002-05:00

"Mirage"

"I could rage and you'd bring rain, until you get to me on my morning side." - Sara Barailles

The subtle moon light illuminates
the gentle contours
of your perfect face

I toss and turn
restless
in the same empty bed

As thoughts of you
flicker and dance
in my head

I've waited here
for what has seemed like
an eternity

I have longed for your touch
my lips have ached in anticipation
of your kiss

Will you think ill of me
if I give into your charms
without the least of resistance?

Every time I close my eyes
I can feel you near
your scent lingers in my memory

So take me now
I ask you
away from all this

Fill me up
with your beautiful ocean
and let the seduction
begin

As you walk towards me
with a knowing look
and that same
disarming smile

As you whisper,

"I've been here all along, darling
desperately holding onto you
so the seduction can overtake us."

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Beside You"

2009-08-12T23:00:00.003-05:00

"Beside You"

Night fades away
ever slowly
as dreams of you
linger

Your face haunts me
where ever I go
every time I close my eyes
I see you there
with me

Your scent clings to the pillow
the memory of your aching touch
imprinted my naked, desperate body
never forgotten but forever
lovingly remembered

The stars may shine
with heavenly brilliance

The moon may illuminate
with subtle light

The rain may fall
wet and expectant

But all the wonders of the world
all that I have ever known
or hope to believe or see

Pales beside the beauty
that is you

I need you

I love you

I want you

My darling
beloved
come closer to me

And let me share
the secret desires
that have been locked away for so long

Yet you stand there
unclothed and longing
holding the key

Wearing nothing
but a smile
and those lips
parted

Anticipating the rapture
that is soon to take place

I love you, darling
how I have always loved you
and I love you still.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Bridge of Deceit"

2009-08-11T15:02:00.003-05:00

"The Bridge of Deceit"

As I walk along silently
the morning sun
shines brightly
warming my back

Thoughts of you
fill my mind
as I try in vain
to forget the pain

Of losing you

Your face
tasting your kiss
your perfect mouth
the shimmer
in your beautiful eyes

You're gone now
fleeting like the warmth
of the sun
moments before
sunset

Its final rays fading

If I close my eyes
for just a second
I see you again
in all your grace

Lead me out of this wilderness
away from this aching loneliness
and cruel heartbreak
dare to burn

The bridge of deceit
that divides us
and threatens our very
breath

Close your eyes, dear
and come with me
once more

Even if it's just
for the fondness
of old times' sake.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Floating"

2009-08-11T14:54:00.003-05:00

"Floating"

The door is closed
wind outside is cold
as it rises, howling
the breath in me
shallow and unsure

The past is locked away now
floating under the bridge
crumbling and dead
everything blurs

Blood on your hands now
as a smile invades your face
I never knew you could
didn't think it would come to this

As the rain falls
you watch silently
as the broken remains
of my heart drift along
barely floating above
the water's surface.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Let It Fall"

2009-08-09T06:42:00.003-05:00

"Let It Fall"

Fragile
like broken glass
shattered but somehow
still my heart beats

In the aftermath
of our inevitable parting
the pain cuts like a knife
forcing me to my knees

I could try to forget
what you do to me
baby
the lure your beauty
has over me

The temptation
too much
no matter where you are
my walls come down

I'm naked and vulnerable

But the room is empty
you're gone now
the bed we shared
is cold and lifeless

The rain hits the window
my fingertips trace outlines
against it silently
longing, waiting, hoping

I feel tears
run down my face
as I close my eyes
and imagine you with me
here and now

Let it fall
oh how I love you still
let it fall

Let it all fall down on me.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Make Believe"

2009-08-07T20:37:00.003-05:00

"Make Believe"

In the same room
the silent walls
I lay on the bed
lost and broken

Oh, it's no use now
No matter how I try
to forget
still, the tears come
wet and perfect

I let you in
like a fool
I let you in
just because

I'd rather break
a mirror
and have seven years
bad luck

Because baby, how I thought
we had
we had
something special

Only to be let down
and left behind again
not sure of anything anymore
I'm not afraid of losing

I'm barely breathing
and you do it over again
when you promised
you'd never

Where could I run for cover
to escape from you, love?
you've become a part of me

Even after all this
I couldn't ever hate you
my darling

I just wish
oh how I wish
the story could have had a happy ending

Instead of being sweet make believe

Somewhere inside
I'm dying again
as the desperate ghosts
within are dancing

The last kiss is always
the most bittersweet.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Pieces"

2009-08-07T19:20:00.002-05:00

"Pieces"

Tell me again
fill me with your lies
baby

Open the wounds
water under the bridge
make me the fool once more

The same old
tired thing again
I'm drowning

Deep and falling
uncovered and bare
I'm bleeding, darling

And you cut me open
again
I'm not scared
of the dark

Come gentle loneliness
with your perfect arms
you can't drag me down
my love

You can never
stop me
from shining
my Sun

The footsteps you leave behind
have killed me over and over
again

But still, I love you

I'd rather be left
barely breathing
my sweet morningside

Save me
oh my beautiful liar
how I need you

In the shadows of twilight
in the last loud beating
of my fragile heart

Can you hear her
call your name?

Can you?

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Linger"

2009-08-07T09:41:00.004-05:00

"Linger"

You've been gone
awhile now
it feels so empty here
without you

Sitting here
trying to find
the words to say
still you're gone

I've been chasing shadows
until the day you came
and walked in my door
and brightened everything

With your beautiful rays
warming my cold, desperate heart
smile for me now
touch my soul

Hold me close to you
against the world
you are my shield
my protection

If I close my eyes long enough
I can see you again
if only for awhile

The world is wide open again
and our hearts are full of possibilities
and we are young again

The darkness fades
when I'm in your arms
nothing else matters
but this moment with you

I lean against the window
and watch the rain fall
its gentle pitter patter

The memory of you
I hold onto you
you've consumed me
taken a piece of my soul
and my heart is out there
with you

I can't let go
what I feel
is too strong
too much

Allow me fall again
one more time
into you
let our paths intertwine
and permit the perfect sweetness
that is your passion
cover me, wrapping me up

Linger awhile

I will wait for you
my love
until you
come back to me

Until then
I lay here
in this lonely bed

Wishing for you
please
let your beauty
invade me again
and linger awhile

Just linger awhile.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Escape"

2009-08-05T15:30:00.002-05:00

"Escape"

The sun shines
as dawn breaks
former night recedes
from view

Its faded promises
and dark secrets
burned away
in glorious light

You hold forever
in the palm
of your hand

Feeling your
warmth against me
leaves me with an aching
deep inside

A beautiful longing I never knew existed

Hold me close now
and whisper your dreams
envelop me in your perfect arms
and never let me fall

Never let me go

My darling, my beloved

All the stars in the night sky
that streak and sparkle
across heaven's face

They all pale beside you

And the devotion that I feel
what we share between us
will be our sweet escape

As the last remaining shards of light
at sunset illuminate you
and the joy in your heart
can be heard
in quiet song

Now and forever
yesterday and today
and long into tomorrow

I will love you with everything I am
and everything I ever hope to be.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Chasing The Sun"

2009-07-26T20:27:00.005-05:00

"Chasing The Sun" *

If I look inside
and touch the dark
empty spaces
and feel cold

The clouds overhead
silently wait before
a storm that never comes
as the world
holds a collective

In the morning
you stand outside my door
waiting expectantly

You smile
as you take my hand
and whisper hope
into my unsuspecting ear

Beside you
I feel whole
without you
the ravages come
like vultures

I would do
anything for you
you warm my heart
and I am forever indebted

Though we cannot
be together
I shall be devoted
to you, beloved

I will never be afraid
to be the star
chasing your Sun.

* - title inspired by "Slide Away" (by Noel Gallagher)

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Angel"

2009-07-26T20:07:00.002-05:00

"The Angel"

She looks down
at her fallen beloved
as he struggles to breathe

"I can save you still," the angel
whispered softly as she knelt down
her shimmery wings barely touching the ground

And her lover smiled, without a word
and he caressed her cheek
wiping the tear that fell upon
her beautiful face

As they kissed
for the last time
warmth filled her
once more
as he held her close
slowly dying

In the final moments
of their beautiful parting
she stood over him
and loving plucked a feather
placing it over his heart

As she leaned in
and whispered in
his ear:

"You may be gone
but never forgotten
and forever remembered
in the chambers of my heart
and soul"

As she took to the sky
and flew away
across the face of perfect
weeping Heaven.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Other"

2009-07-26T19:45:00.004-05:00

"The Other"

"Once in the madhouse they came like specks of cinnamon." - Anne Sexton

The seconds tick away
as I glance at my watch
impatiently
waiting for you

There is a man
who loves you
he came by today
and asked

"What is it you want with her?"

I smiled, but said nothing
Your beloved does not know
could never fathom
the depths of my passion
and devotion to you

My dearest one
if I cannot be with you
I don't want to ever
see the sunrise
or feel breath in my lungs
again

You have stolen
pieces of me, darling
that I cannot ever get back

Must I be forced to live this way
unable to see in the darkness
with your precious light?

No, I suppose this is the way of things
now that you're lost and gone
I wish you well, love

But I'll always stand here
in front of your house
on your street
now deserted

Your faithful "other."

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Leaves and Silence"

2009-07-26T19:31:00.002-05:00

"Leaves and Silence"

Walking outside
as the autumn cold
hits my face
my feet hitting the pavement

Not long ago
when the world
seemed so easy
and my heart
still believed

In silly things
like love
and happy endings
when the sun shone
its brightest

When I had you
in my life, dear
everything seemed so
much easier

Our parting
without a goodbye
has broken my heart
once more

Even though I know
we never can ever go back
I miss the way you loved me
and how you made me feel

So you're gone now
and every moment of joy
has faded but forever remembered
lost now
amid leaves and silence.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Nothing Left"

2009-07-22T22:41:00.005-05:00

"Nothing Left"

As I sit here in front of my desk
staring at the blinking computer screen
my mind drifts to thoughts of you
as the words come
and my once cold heart
comes to life

My fingers on the keyboard
as the computer screen lights up
the words escape from unknown depths
in the same tiny room

You're gone
and there's nothing left
here for me
except memories of you
in my head

They repeat
like snippets of
a film that I've seen
a million times
but never remembered

The subtle beauty of your face
they way your eyes shone
the curvature of your lips
the soft contours
of your perfect shape

The rain begins to fall quietly
pitter-pattering against the window
as the bright neon signs cast
an eerie glow amidst the darkness

I go to the window
and quietly watch
the spectacle unfold

My heart breaking
more and more
by each passing moment.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Against"

2009-07-18T22:23:00.002-05:00

"Against"

If I search
the glittering glow
of neon that dots
the night

If I walk the same
deserted streets
holding on
to false hope
lighter in hand
waiting to burn

If I sit alone
in the bed
empty and cold
my desperation
will wrap me up
in her perfect embrace

If I close my eyes
and dare imagine
what could have been

I'd hear your voice
feel your breath
lie with you
skin against skin

And everything I've ever known
would pale beside
your subtle beauty

Your love - too much
the intoxication
consumes me

As morning light comes
I wake up
with no one there
and the scent of you
lingering
imprinted on my heart
forever in shade.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Wishing For You"

2009-07-17T07:16:00.004-05:00

"Wishing For You"

September morn
come 'round again
the wind makes
the trees sway
as the leaves
soon change color

Our room is empty
since you went away
the sheets unkempt
your scent lingering

As I sit in the same
old chair
in front of the blinking
computer screen

Waiting for the words
to come
that will make you see
somehow
make you stop in
your tracks

Last night
we had coffee
and talked for the last time

If I close my eyes
and let my thoughts drift off
of us alone
together

That special place
where we can never go
because you, my darling
belong to another

And I refuse to give in
to the temptation of
casting aside
my better angels

I need you
but I can never
be the one
for you, my dearest

I want you
but the secret garden
will be forever locked away

Our Eden
will never be
though I still
wish for you

My world's spinning
as you watch desperately
with love in your heart
as I silently fade into
beautiful shadow

How I love you still

And my forlorn heart
will cling to you
amidst the great divide
that will forever
be our guide.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Light The Way"

2009-07-12T22:07:00.009-05:00

"Light The Way"

The night has passed
the clouds of despair and pain
that have threatened to
overtake our longing hearts
has gone away

Take my hand
and gaze at me
with that sultry look
that gets me every time

Tell me your secrets
share with me your
unspoken desires
and let the moment
take us where it will

Kiss me
with your aching lips
and let the sweetness
linger on my mouth

Take me
I want to feel
whole again

Take me to that place
where only you know how
Soaking wet
our bodies intertwine

And let the sounds
of our passionate discourse
be our guide
and light the way

To eternal bliss
as the candle burns
fervent and bright.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Breathe"

2009-07-07T21:56:00.008-05:00

"Breathe"

The morning sun
shines brightly
illuminating
your beautiful contours

The former melancholy
of secret night and her
hidden devotions and
unknown desires
best left undisturbed
has faded

You gaze on me
so longingly
with those eyes
your lovely eyes

Lying in bed
with you
skin against skin
our bodies intertwined
your warmth is intoxicating

Your breath on my neck
pressed up against you
I can feel your heart beat
hard as a drum

I need you
like the sun needs the moon
and the stars need the
perfect expanse of sky

I could live a thousand years
and yet, I would never find
another one as beautiful as
you are to me

You've become the air
I so desperately long
to breathe.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Trouble With No"

2009-07-06T08:05:00.008-05:00

"The Trouble With No"

The door swings open
as you leave
for the last time
as memory starts to fade
I hear the birds outside
chirping mournfully

Your cup of coffee
sits untouched on the counter
the morning paper
on the table unread

Last night
with you
was incredible

You decided
to wear a low cut top
and your favorite jeans
with your hair down

We went out to the park
and sat under the sky
we talked of the future
and watched the stars
as they faded and streaked
across the face of night

You took my hand
and whispered softly
of your desires and dreams
as we kissed over and over
our bodies pressed up against
one another

We went home
later that night
and you slipped
into something
more comfortable

The lights turned down low
you kissed me once
I turned away
trying to fight you off

But you wrapped your arms
around my waist and
pulled me onto you
and, before I could protest
you kissed me hard
and gazed with those
perfect eyes

And the rest
was enraptured
in sweet surrender.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Right Here, Now"

2009-07-06T07:21:00.003-05:00

"Right Here, Now"

Alone
in front of this blinking
screen
staring at blank white
waiting for the words
to come

The room is empty
the bed is cold
everything is different
without your love
to fill my lonely spaces

I close my eyes
and imagine you
right here, now
and in that moment
we're together again

I touch your face
we lean in closer
I feel your breath
on my neck

As we kiss
the world stops
for an instant
my heart spins

I hear you
whispering
in my ear

I need you
I want you
please stay awhile
because you
and only you
make me whole

As our bodies meet
at the mutual intersection
as I lay against you
the heat rises

A moan escapes
as your legs part open
and the rhythm of our
sensual interlude
threatens to overtake us

I need you
I ache for you
I want you so badly
I can taste it

You are the night sky
and all the glittering stars

You are the sun
that shines brightly

You are my whole world
and forever will be.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Don't"

2009-07-02T22:25:00.003-05:00

"Don't"

Time has passed slowly
the moment has lingered
for far too long
as the sky turns dark

The beauty of former
has faded against the tumult
against the wishes of the demons
lurking just beneath the cracks
waiting to surface

Gone is the way things
used to be
when the world made sense
and youth was on my side

As you walk away
the waters have receded
and faith weeps crystal tears
as my heart shatters
cast off
into oblivion

"Please don't go," I whisper desperately

How I need you still.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Under The Lights"

2009-07-01T18:58:00.004-05:00

"Under The Lights"

The sun fades silently
as the sky waits
for the subtle beauty
of coming night

Discretion gives way
to desperate release
please, I beg you, take me
away with you

You have what I need
what I want
what I crave

Exploring the boundaries
pushing the envelope
under the lights.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "On The Line"

2009-06-29T15:14:00.002-05:00

"On The Line"

Driving down the highway
the top down
towards an unknown
away from the pain
and misery

1994 blares on the radio
as my mind wanders
to the that night
when I lost you
and the world
stopped making any sense

It was Sunday night
I had come in from a heavy downpour
clothes soaked to the bone
it dark inside
no light in the house

You were bent over
hands gripping the kitchen island
shirt ripped out, breasts exposed
skirt raised, legs apart

In the heat of the moment
a desperate moan escaped
your aching mouth
as your eyes
seemed to say

"I'm sorry"

I ran out
the sting of salty tears
streaming down my face
went upstairs

Found the knife
you hid in the nightstand drawer
dropped to my knees
clutching it
hands shaking, throat dry

The blade
slivery gleam
perfectly beautiful
it rushes to meet
my delicate insides

As I collapse
I hear you scream
as you stand over me
everything comes full circle

As life fades away
I smile
my hand touches yours
for the last time

With our mutual salvation
on the line.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Blood In My Veins"

2009-06-26T21:54:00.004-05:00

"Blood In My Veins"

If I sleep to dream
let me see your lovely face
hear your voice again
to feel you beside me
once more

In the morning after
after passion and need
have satisfied our lustful desires
the sun rises to greet us
with its illuminating light

You get up and walk towards the window
looking out towards the shore
as the tides come crashing violently
against the rocks

It has begun anew
I walk up behind you
and slide my hands
around your waist

As the moment lingers
my heart beats faster
you lean your back
against my chest
and sigh contentedly

Loving you is the one thing
that I was meant to do
lest we share the same air
to breathe

You have become
the very blood
in my veins.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Flood"

2009-06-26T18:51:00.003-05:00

"Flood"

I stand here
in front of this broken glass
because of you dear

The scars
such beautiful
little things

Tears come down
like raindrops
amid the fading dawn

My breath is cold
as you stare
gasping at my holes
exposed

You turn away
as the light fades
from your eyes
those desperate pools
of stormy blue-gray

Crawling on my hands and knees
on the blood soaked floor
you took away my innocence
and replaced it with dark
restless seething

Oh I want to hate you
my bastard love
I was taken before my time
you ripped me apart
with your promises and deceit

As you pulled me closer into you
a part of me died
my screams of help
fell on deaf ears

Oh my sweet predator
you shall always have the best part
of me
locked away with you

As you walk away
for the last time
love, always remember

That in the empty spaces
that grow within you
that I hope you get what's coming
to you

How I love you still
as this feeling lingers a moment longer
save me somehow
from giving in
and doing the right thing
for the wrong reason.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Notes From The 13th Ceiling Aftermath"

2009-06-24T20:29:00.008-05:00

"Notes From The 13th Ceiling Aftermath"

The heat index today was 105
inside this cramped room
the bed unkempt, pillows askew
your scent lingers on the sheets

You left a note for me
taped to the fridge
scrawled in your handwriting
the words seem to jump off
the page

Last night was a wash
I left the bar as you came in
you had that little black number on
the one you swore you'd never
wear for me

Walking home alone
the cold November air
against my face
as a smile invades
the corners of my mouth

Words fly off the typewriter
at breakneck speed
you are at the bar now
nursing a Rum and Coke

Soon you'll be in the arms
of another handsome stranger
doing the things we used we
used to
long ago

You know I still do
turning your back
the shadows threaten
to swallow us whole

Close your eyes
the tides are coming
for you, my darling
beware the beacon
as the sirens blare

The waiting shore
opens her warm arms
as we watch

Whispering all the while
"let her bleed"
kicking up sand

It's over now
as tears stream
down my burning cheeks
you get up and leave

Inside, something breaks
my mind's spinning

I want you
but we can't ever go back
I love you
goodbye

Let me slowly fade to black
and allow the darkness
to slip through it.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Wish"

2009-06-22T19:05:00.005-05:00

"The Wish"

The night waits
in silent splendor
as countless faces
in the sea of humanity
oblivious to their own whims

She lies in shadow
clutching the pillow
imagining him
beside her

The feel of his skin
against her luminous beauty
the aching warmth
of their mutual entanglement
her lips, his arms, her thighs

The tension between them palpable
pulling her into him, they kiss deeply
the room spins
in what seems like am an eternity
as the moment lingers

He looks into her eyes
into those beautiful eyes
and knows that this
was never meant to be

The light from the candle
flickers as the unspoken wish
fades desperately
against the glow of dying stars.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Gift"

2009-06-18T20:43:00.002-05:00

"The Gift"

Lying in bed

in the sweltering heat

of a mid summer's night

can't sleep

Thoughts of you

invade my mind

as the horses

stop spinning

Your lips brush against mine

your touch, electricity between us

hands grip the bed tightly

as passion and sensual commerce

threaten to overtake us

In the aftermath

where mutual longing and desire

collide

what we share burns brighter

than a thousand stars

that like heaven's perfect face.

You cling to me

we are alone together

you gaze with those eyes

those beautiful eyes

And your smile

captures my heart

more than

a million "I love you's"

ever could

My beloved friend

and darling lover

keep me from losing myself

so that we can share a moment

that lingers

long after the afterglow.

Poem: "Beauty's Whisper"

2009-06-17T19:33:00.005-05:00

"Beauty's Whisper"

Waking up next to you
the morning sun hits my face
with its welcoming warmth
the clock reads 9 a.m.

The night has faded
in its exquisite glory
with its secret promises
and perfect indiscretion

You gaze at me so sweet
it makes my heart soar
feels like heaven beside you
my dear beloved

Kiss me once
with that aching mouth
those perfect lips
make this moment
linger just awhile longer

When our bodies meet
at the sensual intersection
of affection and longing
I'm on fire
as you lean closer
into me
deeper we go down

In the morning you lay in bed
your head on my bare chest
I feel the joy in you breath
I feel you up against me
whispering gently in my ear

"I love you"

Then something within me
dies and is reborn in an instant
the world is wide and wonderful
once more

On the windowsill, a dove waits
shimmering in the afterglow
of beauty's return.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Falling Into You"

2009-06-17T19:24:00.006-05:00

"Falling Into You"

The night calls out
to the sweltering
glittering neon signs

The skyline is beautiful
with the stars streaking
across the face of heaven

The room is bare
walls are unadorned
signs of the past
everywhere

As the old typewriter
it sits idly
waiting for the words
to come

But we both know
it won't work out exactly
the way we may want it to
despite the desperation
lingering against
your window

Look to the sky
touch my face
hold my hand
and let the wonder
of us take you away
once more.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Fragile"

2009-06-14T10:19:00.005-05:00

"The Fragile"

Watching the skeletons
as they crawl out
of the closet
as broken bones
seethe in quiet disgust

Silence pervades
the subtle spaces
between you and I
begin to fade
as the distance grows

I will wait for you
my dearest one
amid the larks
that fly overhead

Walking alone
to the pond
I cast a pebble
and watch it skip along
the clear water

As I close my eyes
I wish for you
and, in that fleeting moment,
our embrace lingers
as you kiss
my aching mouth.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Shattered Glass"

2009-06-12T23:19:00.003-05:00

"Shattered Glass"

Sitting alone at my desk
staring numbly at the blinking screen
your face etched in my memory
your fragrance, your breath
lingers awhile
longer than it should

Insomnia has taken hold
though sleep eludes me
like a phantom
in the early hours

The bed is cold now
you've gone away
twilight has descended
upon my heart
like vultures to a carcass

I have spent hours
days, weeks, months
wishing you'd come back
hoping that you would
somehow see how
this whole beautiful mess
came to be

You've went away
met another
I hear you're married now
he must be a wonderful man

I've been through this a million times
and would probably go through it
a million more
just to have the answers
that would somehow
make me whole again

Crawling on my knees
toward the door
hands reach up
struggling to escape

There is no hope
inside, my heart
seethes
shards of
shattered glass.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Remains" *

2009-06-10T16:05:00.006-05:00

"Remains" *

Standing in the spot
it is dark now
nightfall has descended
upon the subtle remains
of my broken heart

There was a man
who frequented
the local nightclub
who knew the
daughter of a woman
who was owed money

He walks inside
sits at the bar
eyes me suspiciously
for a moment

I sit idly
as the minutes pass
as the words come
from a familiar place

The bed is cold
and I'm tired
this place has
no warmth left

Head in my hands
pictures of you
all scattered
on the bed

Blood on my shirt
staggering to the sink
turn the faucet on
the water running

I collapse to the floor
welcoming unnatural sleep
as the void seeks fervent embrace
once more.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

* poem inspired by "Still Remains" (Scott Weiland/Robert De Leo).

Poem: "My Sunday Girl" *

2009-06-09T19:44:00.003-05:00

"My Sunday Girl" *

The neon glows like a beacon
inviting the lovers of the night
to come out of the woodwork
the moon is out
in its quiet brilliance

She is among them tonight
searching for the something
or someone that will stop
her vulnerable heart

Desire hides within
the shadows
as the wind howls
we run hand in hand
to the old church

It is beautiful inside, he whispers
as Sunday's girl leans into him
and their bodies intertwine
the wetness from her thighs
blesses the union

A holy no
as the two souls
are joined
in consecrated bliss.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

* - this poem was inspired by "Down" (Scott Weiland/Robert De Leo)

Poem: "Interstate" *

2009-06-09T18:59:00.003-05:00

"Interstate" *

Driving on the highway
away from here
away from the ghosts
that have haunted
my days

The open road ahead
so many miles to go
the sun shines down
upon your beautiful face

The former glory we shared
is now hanging by a thread
the wind in our hair
not a single cloud in the sky

You move closer
leaning in for a kiss
our lips meet
and, in that moment,
the flame burns once more

The lies spoken between us
the fragrant desperation
that your demands had
on my mind and my heart
was undeniably palpable

You squeeze my hand
I put my foot on the gas pedal
and, as the speedometer, rises
I close my eyes

And imagine you above me
with nothing but a smile
your sticky warmth over me

As it curdles my blood
along this stretch
of lonely interstate.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

* - poem was inspired by "Interstate Love Song" (Scott Weiland/Robert De Leo)

Poem: "Mess"

2009-06-09T16:23:00.002-05:00

"Mess"

The streets are lined
with freaks, addicts, and fuckers
the night has come once again
illuminating storm and stillness
with its perfect light

He lays on the bed
contemplating
the what if's
the could have been's

Still in the tiny cramped space
surrounded by scraps of paper
half-eaten cartons of bad Chinese takeout
and empty bottles of Smirnoff and Jack Daniel's

She left in a haze
taking in her suitcase
all their hopes, dreams, desires
and dirty laundry

He finds a picture of her
in happier times
and softly traces her face
with his fingers

The skeletons of his closet
have come back
from the long buried past
for their much deserved
revenge

Smiling to himself
he drops to his knees
mutters a silent plea
calmly awaiting
the deluge to
commence.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Addict"

2009-06-09T15:48:00.002-05:00

"The Addict"

The man stares back
at the mirror
and can't stand the sight
of himself
of what he has lost
and what he has become

He stares at the walls
they are bare
and unbelievably brutal
in their silence

The words fly onto the page
as he sits at the old desk
the electric typewriter a-buzzing
his mind feverishly at the controls

A bottle of vodka sits idly by
he fishes in his pocket for a cigarette
and lights it, taking a long drag
he leans back in the chair
and smiles to himself

She left long ago
the warm and beauty
that filled his life
is now no more

He gets up
grabs the vodka bottle
and steps outside for a moment
into the waiting rain

Taking a drink
he longs for sweet surrender
that never comes

He falls to his knees
praying for respite

As his demons coldly laugh
churning, twisting, writhing
the pain contorts his face
into a state of wickedly contented
bliss

Lest the world fades away
the final breath exhales.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Veil"

2009-06-09T15:12:00.005-05:00

"The Veil"

She stands at the altar
her fiance apparently decided
to run off with that hot brunette
40-ish cougar
in the leopard print
and high heels

The bride
smiles to herself
amid a rush of tears
"It was so easy back then,"
she says with a sigh

He promised to take her
away from all the sadness
from all the pain that tortured
her aching heart

That first night
she found out
that he loved her

She decided to repay him
in kind
with lingerie and red wine
it was a sordid, lovely night

Time passed and the two
became joined at the hip
he took a steady 9-5
while she stayed home with the kids

The night of their undoing
he was caught in the backseat
getting to know the neighbor's wife
with his pants down around his ankles

The bastard smiled afterward
and, upon his return, the bride
punched him square in the face
and stormed out of the house

The lonely veil left on the killing floor.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Chaos and Midday"

2009-06-09T10:00:00.004-05:00

"Chaos and Midday"

When the line
crosses into the night's fateful
sublime knowing
and the seams
are about to burst

And the broken mess
lies in the floor
what is left
is not much else

Other than this empty room
and the same old typewriter
in the same chair
the walls are bare now

My hands ache
with resignation
of the coming
of the eventual
undoing

The sun is shining
inside, my bones are cold
the blood that runs
through my body
is rendered useless

Strangers walk past
on the street
with their filthy handshakes
and fake gestures

You are gone now
nothing is the same
I'm missing you
as the world grows smaller

I die a little more inside
who's gonna reach out
to rescue me
from the fall?

Head in my hands
Tthe clock blares
it is now 1:30 p.m.
as a breath manages
a heroic escape

The debacle is now
in full swing.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Taken"

2009-06-08T06:34:00.006-05:00

"Taken"

This feels like a dream
the sun rises
its glorious light
signals the beginning

you're standing by the window
silently watching the restless waves
as they crash against the waiting shore

I get up and go to the window
you smile as I take your hand
and you put your arm around me

moments pass
as your heart
throbs
nearly skipping
a beat

you gaze at me
longingly
as we kiss
your lips taste
sweet

lest our fervent embrace
leads us down
unknown paths

let my devotion
be our guide
to light the way

hold me close
tell me that you desire
what it is
I so desperately offer.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Deep"

2009-06-07T08:54:00.004-05:00

"Deep"

The moonlight illuminates
your face, your lovely face
as you sleep, shadows flicker
and dance amid your subtle shape

You called last night
at the bar
had a few drinks
and danced
with a handsome stranger

"I hate it when
those random cocks
think it's okay to just
come up behind me
and grab my ass."

It was 2:30
in the morning
when you knocked
on my door

Your eyes were bloodshot
your mascara all over
saying nothing
you ran over
and caught me up
in your embrace

We talked for hours
over coffee
and bad Chinese takeout

Feeling needy
you motioned to the bed
and, as you laid there
you shuddered
spreading your legs
ever so slightly

Your mouth parted
as we kissed
the heat between us
undeniable

As our bodies
intertwined
faster, harder, more
and so went the flow

Until you collapsed
into my waiting arms
bathed in sweat
sticky and satisfied
you winked as
you licked your lips

Wanting another go
knowing all along
you were in deep
from the start.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Amid The Ruins"

2009-06-06T20:16:00.010-05:00

"Amid The Ruins"

The moonlight shimmers
across the restless tides
another day is gone away
as watchful eyes ponder
unforeseen motives

the same routine
at the old typewriter
writing the same lines
watching the wheels spin

she lies on the bed
with her diary open
pouring her heart out
her thoughts
are a million miles away

a note left on the door:

"dearest,

it has been ages since we
last saw one another
I did not want
our last moments together
to be full of anger and pain

I just wanted to let you know
that that you will always be
the most special part of me

even though we're apart
please know that the sun
will rise again
and I won't ever let you go"

she gets up and goes to the kitchen
and picks up the phone
dialing the number slowly
she exhales

desperately wishing
her beloved's embrace
to carry her home
amid the ruins.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Sober"

2009-06-06T17:05:00.004-05:00

"Sober"

The bright sun has burned away
the last vestiges of self-control
as the bottle sits silently on the desk
in front of me

the bed where I lay is empty
and cold
your subtle warmth
gone away

the phone rings
I let the answering machine
pick up
just so I can your voice again

the walls
are bare now
it's too late
to save me
from the fall

sometimes
I close my eyes
and hear you
whisper softly

your fragrant beauty
lingers awhile
clinging to me
haunting my soul
stirring my bones

amid perfect strokes
of shadow and release
the aching intersection
of unbridled sensuality.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Imprint"

2009-06-06T14:01:00.004-05:00

"Imprint"

The alarm clock
blares loudly
it is 3 a.m.
as the light
goes out

In the dark
of the early morning
hours
while the world sleeps
desperation seethes

I sit here at my desk
in the same old chair
writing the words

that I hope will reach you

the night light

starts to flicker

as thoughts

of you rush

into my mind

I am a cup

waiting desperately

to be filled.

Poem: "Possession"

2009-06-05T19:04:00.003-05:00

"Possession"

The light fades slowly
patches of sun still peek through
the open window

she looks out
up at the sky
as the clouds approach
and gentle night settles in

she longs for him
his face forever imprinted
in her mind

she reaches for his picture
on the nightstand
clutching it
close to her heart

the bed is cold and empty
without his warmth
and easy laugh

she turns away
as the loneliness creeps in
and threatens to overtake
her precious heart

somewhere
he walks in silently
into the same space
he's occupied for years

with the single bed
and cramped desk
with electric typewriter

he wishes that she knew
the desires of his heart
and what lies deep
within his soul

the phone rings
she is on the other line
he smiles to himself

and so the dance begins anew.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Nearly Gone"

2009-06-05T17:24:00.003-05:00

"Nearly Gone"

I think I'm falling for you, he said
it has been hours since they have talked
or seen one another, but the poor boy's heart
is so full

that he's about to burst at the seams

he walks to the desk and sits down
feverishly writing down his thoughts
on the paper
barely stopping for a breath
the words flow like running water
onto the thirsty page

she waits in silence
her heart locked away
the beauty in her eyes
masked by the pain
that haunts her still

the moment fate intervenes
and the two desperate souls
are joined together

the woman smiles
and embraces the boy
and the joy that consumes her
nearly makes his heart ache
overflowing with need and gratitude

they lie together now
underneath the stars
he holds her close
as she lays her head
on his bare chest

they look deeply
into one another's eyes
and with that first kiss
the world that they once knew apart
is now nearly gone.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Skin"

2009-06-05T15:06:00.006-05:00

Poem: "Skin"

You are out there
waiting in silence
moments pass
as the glitter of
neon fades

You don't know me
although we've passed
each other in public
several times

If the coward in me
would die
then you would
surely know
what I already do

Though distance keeps us apart
every time I close my eyes
we are together
you and I
in the same space

I don't have the words
in this moment with you
to feel your warmth
against my skin

Lest the demons drag me
into the mouth of hell
as heaven stares down
with divine reluctance

I'm locked away in the same room
with all these words - precious words
scattered on countless pieces of paper
across the cold wooden floor

It is night now
you slip on a short black dress
and ruby red lipstick
with your hair down

you look dangerous tonight

The anticipation is almost
ready to devour my insides
and break my fragile bones
one by one

Will you wait for me
in the fragrant shadows
longing to be noticed
aching to be touched
starving for affection

As I lie naked on the bed
moonlight illuminates my bare chest
lost in the rapture, desire beckons
the door opens slowly as you walk in

"here and now, my love
our sensual undoing,"
was the last thing you whispered

amid the tumultuous roar
of our bodies intertwined
in sweat and ecstasy

Reaching out for beautiful release.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Closet Fuckers"

2009-06-04T08:44:00.004-05:00

"Closet Fuckers"

Part I: SHE

I was 16
when I lost it
it hurt and it was dark
we had decided to wait
until Mom left for the night

I was a popular girl in school
every day after gym class
the boys would wait near my locker
like moths to a flame

His name was Brad
and he was big
6'3" and muscular
and he loved to show off

It happened on a Friday
under the bleachers
during football practice

He liked the my short skirt
the way it accentuated my hips
and always watched my walk
he was determined, that one was

It hurt at first with him
on top of me
raising me up
into him

I stifled a scream
I felt something gush
inside me and
my heart sank.

Part II: He

Victoria was a prude
she didn't think so
but everyone knew it
by the way she was

The way she could gaze
into the eyes of an unsuspecting guy
and turn his knees to jelly

Or whenever she walked
The way her hips swayed
back and forth
made all the guys squirm
with anticipation

She seduced a freshman
in the boy's locker room
by bending over and showing her ass
and exposing her cleavage

She backed up into him
as they went
in and out
painting the loop

Wet, sweaty
achingly lustful
screaming

The last moments, euphoric.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Chasing In The Dark"

2009-06-04T07:03:00.006-05:00

Poem: "Chasing In The Dark"

Part 1: Her

Her black hair glistens
as she steps out of the shower
dries herself off
and stands naked
in front of a full-length mirror

Admiring her lovely shape
subtle contours
ample breasts
pouty lips

She puts on a short black dress
that rises above the knees
that barely covers her ass
when she walks

She smiles and laughs
no one hears her
the excitement
is almost too much
as she stumbles
out the door.

Part II: She (The Lover)

Putting on her lipstick
she feels her heart pounding
like a siren into the waiting night
she pours herself a glass of wine
and sits on the couch

She lays back and closes her eyes
imagining her lover
touching her, whispering to her
"you know you want this"

The anticipation is intoxicating
as she loses herself in the moment
feeling warm
she reaches for her favorite cock
and has one last go
as she succumbs to beautiful release
the wetness all over
her aching thighs

As the doorbell starts to ring.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Beauty's Escape"

2009-06-04T06:21:00.004-05:00

"Beauty's Escape"

I don't know what's wrong with me, love
the hollow beating of my heart
makes me desperately long
for a quiet place
to escape

Darling, the demons
threaten to overtake
my tortured soul
there's no turning back now

If only I could see your face
to rest my head on your bare chest
to feel your breath against my neck
to kiss you until I am forever intoxicated

I fallen so far
in so deep
that I have forgotten
where I end
and you begin

The thought of you
warms my cold heart
and stirs a hunger
that I believed to be long gone

Sit with me now
my beautiful one
and allow the fires
of passion and need
guide us

So I can get lost
in the rapture and affection
that is you

Will you save me
long enough to set me free?

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Spinning The Wheels"

2009-06-01T16:51:00.006-05:00

"Spinning The Wheels"

The room seems a bit uneven
a little off kilter
am I still here
the mauve walls
mock my contemplation

You left a week ago
I'd be lying if I told you
that I'm doing fine
the bottles of liquor
attest to my moral apathy

The guy you are with
is rich, successful
lives in the Hamptons
and quotes Picasso

I'm stuck in this
cramped shit hole
of a place
writing away aimlessly
on the same old typewriter

I'm waiting for you
again
like old times
thinking of you again

Dear love
with your sweet face
your soft curves
round hips
firm breasts
and aching temptation

How I hate you now
the sickening laughter
of the silent walls

The damned eye o'clock
signaling my impending doom
as the phone sits in the corner
untouched

I pick up the receiver
dial your number
just to hear you
fuck me over
again

My sweet darling
make me forget
please let me
slip through the cracks.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Night and Shade"

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"Night and Shade"

Her black hair
falling down
slightly past
her shoulders

her pale skin
illuminated
by the perfect light
of silvery moon

the vampire princess
her soft face
and subtle beauty
masks what lies

beneath in shadow

the heart that beats within
is wide open and searching
for that kindred soul
to soothe for pain
and warm the coldness
that seethes inside

her beloved waits from afar
his heart full of longing
his arms open wishing

for the embrace that
will calm the raging fires

that have tormented
his broken soul

she stands before him
and, as they kiss
the taste lingers
as the moment fades
into eternity

the love they hold
for one another
is the shimmering light
breaking through
the wounded sky

after the storm
this moment
they are alone
together

such a beautiful interlude
as she whispers,
I love you

he responds in kind
under the glimmering stars
she smiles as he says

I will never let you go.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo