Poem: "The Locked Door"

"The Locked Door"

Falling into
a gasping breath
memories fade
in the gaping wound
of never

Your kiss
upon my desperate mouth
lingers like the shadows
in the misty-eyed
farewell

Of a goodbye that
should have never
been uttered
in soft, teary whispers

Gone.. gone.. gone.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Separated"

"Separated"

Underneath the discontented sky
where feeling ends
and the silent horror builds
such a perfect child
waiting to be held

Her small frame
shaking violently
like a twisted reed
in the wind

I cannot go back
as much as I would want to
it's over now, the darkness
looming with ethereal triumph

As I lay here motionless
the blood in my veins
has run cold
as my face contorts
in a final scream
never uttered.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "She and Him"

"She and Him"

She:

I am more than just a pretty face
arms, long legs
and a vagina

You make me ache so bad
it hurts to cross my legs
dust off your lust
from the corner shelf

Oh baby, I know you will
do it, right here and now
invade my private space
with your dirty thoughts
longing to leak out

Him:

Bated breath in my chest
as the moon illuminates
your perfect nakedness
warmth against mine

The world falls away
as inhibition fades
the discourse of
passionate surrender
envelops the silence
overtaking the roaring
of the neglected tides
of ambivalent Fate.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Goodbye"

"Goodbye"

You take
and take
with selfish hands
and harsh words

Cutting my heart out
as I bleed
slumped on the floor
body fading

All the forgotten time
is gone now
like the silent wind
rustling the leaves

As the white wolf howls
the door creaks open
and life rushes out of me

Like a lover scorned
the laughter escapes from
within as I exhale
one defiant last breath
middle finger raised

Farewell
my favorite mistake
goodbye.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Never Fade"

"Never Fade"

The sun won't shine
quite as brightly
the music is gone
replaced by uncomfortable silence

You were a shooting star
so beautiful and vibrant
why did you have to burn
out so soon?

I'll carry your memory
with me forever
and the love you shared
will never be forgotten

I love you, dear one
Never fade away

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "On The Run"

"On The Run"

She smiled as
the door closed
behind her
this was the last
time

Falling away
forgetting to breathe
my lungs take you
in
once more

Step outside
into the waiting arms
of the shadowy velvet
winking murder

Blood so hot
it races in your
expectant veins
like a underpaid
whore

Take me far
from this place
of desolation
and feverish
sweet pain

Until the lure
of your possessive embrace
ensnares me again
just for old times sake

Spread your thighs
wide
and let the ripe air
drink your wanton desire

As you throw your head back in ecstasy
let me in
watching your every moment

My inhibition is gone
always
on the run.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Holding On"

"Holding On"

Everybody's on the run
gripping tightly at the wheel
chasing the setting of the sun
moment with you I want to steal

If you decide that it's best to leave
the darkness threatening to come in
my broken heart won't get a reprieve
being without you is the greatest sin

Holding on
but you're on the run
holding on
but you're on the run

Gone now
lost without you
but I'm still...

Holding on.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Fuck Chaucer"

"Fuck Chaucer"
- for Bukowski.

At the old joint
on the corner of
Hollywood and Vine
where the homeless scatter the street
like flies with their shit stained pants
and wrinkled upturned, gleaming teeth

"Spare some change, fella?," he asks

I ignore him and keep walking
lost in thought, my mind rambles
to the moment of the open door
when I caught my woman
in bed with another
fresh faced dancer
burying her tongue deep inside
her nether parts

"The bitch", I thought
oh, how I wanted to yell
and stomp and kick her
cheating ass out
and onto the cold, hard street

But no, like a pauper
I left without a word
went down the stairs
as Sinatra played
on the old transistor radio

"I'm fucking up," I said to myself
lighting up a cigarette
and taking in the cool night air
with each anxious breath
ever closer to the climax
of pathetic hands
on the jarring wheel.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Want"

"Want"

Your lips
the softness of your mouth
the sweet taste of your kiss
lingering in the aftermath

Your smile
the music of your laugh
the magnetic pull of
your radiant eyes

Your subtle touch
every beautiful curve
of your sensual body

I want you feel
your love so deep inside
the desire coming out
in the moment of our
inevitable intersection.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Resistance"

I.

In  the days of before
when men died and bled
courage gained nevermore
it's all been done and said

II.

The sky ominous and black
soldiers with their stone faces
never to find a soul they lack
only to go into desperate places

III.

Walk subtle on hallowed ground
a newborn baby cries, freed from mother's womb
lest the agony of one's screams make a tortured sound
love me a moment longer from our beautiful tomb.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Hot Shower and Vodka"

"Hot Shower and Vodka"

HE:

I called you on the line
three rings
no one home
been on my mind

I'm tired of sitting home
need your kind of trouble
tonight

SHE:

Step inside
my private space
to share together
a stolen moment
with you

Wet skin
subtle embrace
a kiss
ever softly

An unspoken invitation
of what could be

HE:

Hot and sticky
the hunger burns
through our desire
consuming us
in its path

Unfold slowly
stay with me now
under the cascade of water
and drink me

Until your thirst is satisfied.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "White Flag"

"White Flag"

Rainy night
dark and cold
teeth chatter
breath on the window
of an infallible chasm

Towards inescapable
parting
as my flag of last resistance
lies smoldering

You stand before me
destiny in a bridal gown
your embrace engulfs me
in inevitable intersection

The feel of your tectonic plates
as I surrender
drowning in a sea
of molten desire.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Shake My Tree"

"Shake My Tree"

Her eyes, beautiful and bright
swept across the sea of faces
in the room
her hips swaying as she walked
towards the bar

She lit a cigarette
and leaned over to
the bartender
and whispered something in her ear
her voice, a whisper in the wind

All the desire in the world
could never tame her
I did not have in me
to give her what she wanted

And yet, she smiled in my direction and said:

Come on, baby
I know you want me
shake my tree
let my body set your inhibitions free
because if you're good
I'll let you in for a night
fuck me like I think you should
because you can't resist me, try as you might

Come on, baby
shake my tree.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Dust and Promises"

"Dust and Promises"

Come closer, she said
with a knowing smile
moving towards me
with the trained grace
of a ballet dancer

Desire is a blade
that cuts too close
to my fragile skin
the blood on my hands
falling away
in desperate pieces

When all I wanted
was your touch
as the sun sets
all we shared

Fades away
until all that is left
is dust and
unfulfilled promises.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Horizon"

"Horizon"

SHE:

Lying in this cold, empty bed
all the warmth is gone
but still
I look for you
in the shadows
of unknown dark

Even now
the fire burns bright
as you threaten to consume me whole
how I need you still

HE:

Trapped in this
cocoon of loneliness
the days blur into one another
as I struggle to make sense of
life without you

SHE:

Memories of you
cling to me
like whispers in the wind
as I look out the window
I desperately want to see
you standing there
waiting for me

Just once more
for old times' sake

HE:

I've been floating adrift
all these lost years
without you
holding onto hope
and praying
to a God who's remained
silently watching our drama unfold
that you would come back to me

SHE:

I never stopped loving you
you've given me joy beyond compare
and nothing in this world matters
more to me than you

HE:

Right here, right now
I look to the sky
and close my eyes
as your love fills the air I breathe

Take me with you
never let go
ever again

I need you, I love you, I want you
when you wake, I shall wait there for you
and long for the moment to begin
when we can share our forever after.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Walk Away (Don't Go)"

"Walk Away (Don't Go)"

The sky
so open and yet
so achingly distant

As I wake up
the glaring light
from new day
blinds me
for a moment

You left
without a word
or a goodbye

The sweetness of your kiss
the way you felt against me
meant everything to me

 And as I close my eyes,
in the stillness of the moment
as I watch the world unfold

I see your face
one more time
as I reach out
longing for you

I fall to the cold ground
as darkness envelops all around
swallowing me whole.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Bridging The Gap"

"Bridging The Gap

HE:

I lay here
in this cold space
the memory
of the beautiful lines
of your perfect form
burned forever
into my brain

I reach out to you
hoping to touch
a piece of heaven
but you are gone

Still I hold onto you
as fragments of what we shared
now replaced by distance
haunt my mind
like a familiar black and white

SHE:

Every moment away
from you seems forced
I'm condemned to
live a forlorn existence

If I could
just hear your voice
trace the lines of your face
drown in your embrace
as we fall towards the bed
our bodies intertwined in desperate need
if just once, our permanent fate
let it be so

HE:

The night sky
seems empty
the rain soaks me
to the bone

I am a wayward soul
without the compass of your love
to guide me home

If I never see you again
Please know
that nothing in this world
or the aftermath
could keep me
from you

SHE:

As I watch the sun rise
My thoughts fly to you
where ever you may be
longing to join our hearts
once more

Mutual devotion
inescapable
as our love
bridges the gap.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Crescendo"

"Crescendo"

NEED:

Your subtle charms
the glimmer of forever
in your beautiful gaze
the way your simple touch
changes everything

DESIRE:

A quiet space to share
daydreams of you
just because
to feel your warmth
beside me

As our bodies intertwine
in unspoken devotion
illuminated by perfect moonlight
the passion rises
in the shadows
of unbridled want.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Burning"

"The Burning"

If subtle light
from death of former day
threaten to overtake
the oncoming night
lesser souls will fail
and weaker hearts
falter in their noble
resolve

A final candle burns quietly
in the empty space we longed to share
though you are far away
your beauty is etched in my cold heart

And I shall wait here
for you
as your last kiss
lingers still
on my desperate mouth

The only thing you left behind
was this note:

"The beauty of the stars may fade
and oceans rise and die
but my love for you
will always remain."

Until you come back
the burning of my restless heart
will go on
someday, leading you
home
in my arms again forever.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: “As Luck Would Have It”

“As Luck Would Have It”

The night air howls

as the darkness settles in

with its bluish incandescent light

shimmering against my face

The bed is cold now

sleep comes like a phantom

stirring up the lovely bones

pieces of what was remain

Forever trapped inside

wanting to come out

at the seams

Sitting at the old desk

as I try to make sense

of my state of disarray

a candle burns defiantly

I am not the same

life has lost its luster

the flowers once in bloom

lay dead now in my hands

If I had the words

that would make you stay

so you would know

what was inside

I’d run into your waiting embrace

my lips aching to kiss yours

to hold you and feel the warmth

of your body against mine

And whisper:

“please come home

my love

how I need you so.”

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo 

Poem: "Away"

“Away”

HE:

Time apart from you

is torture that my fragile heart

can’t bear for too long

to the point that

I can’t breathe

SHE:

I count the days

while you are gone

and my brain wraps itself

around you like a cocoon

not wanting to let go

HE:

The sun light seems to flicker and fade

as the darkness within my quiet spaces

is slowly overtaken

cannot find a way out

SHE:

The greatest sin

Has not been loving you

because you make

everything I do seem easy

But, if you must know,

missing you has become

the cause of my unraveling

and I need you still

more than I can ever say

Don’t go away.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo 

Poem: "The Boy Standing In The Middle of The Tracks"

“The Boy Standing In The Middle of The Tracks”

The peculiar lump in his throat

subtle changes in the wind

against his bare skin

reminds me

of how small he is

The lights are blinding

as he closes his eyes shut

a strange smile creeps up

around the corners

Somewhere far away

a young woman lies in bed

wide awake

her mind racing

her brain swimming

With thoughts of him

his intense stare

his quiet, careful words

and the way he touched her

with his reluctant smile

The darkness is a comforting bedfellow

soon, there will be nothing left

 not even a memory to hold onto

But in her heart, she somehow knew

that the boy standing in the middle of the tracks that night

loved her with all of the desperation and longing he could muster

and she smiles and closes her eyes one final time, whispering:

“It was more than enough.”

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: “Someday Forever”

“Someday Forever”

HE:

Life is beautifully strange

never knew anything

but the dark lonely spaces

that have become my bedfellows

I close my eyes

and breathe you in deeply

the holes in my heart

have somehow faded

Into the background

nothing but white noise

until the only sound heard

is the slow rhythm of

your perfect heart

I am ready for you

just want the end

to go away

so we can have our small opening

to finally begin this dance of ours

SHE:

I’ve lusted before

given of my flesh

and desire to others

who were less deserving

of my womanly gifts

But nothing comes close

to what you’ve asked me

to share with you

my brain is drunk

from your subtle charms

And dreams of you cling

to my skin

refusing to let go

my craving for you

relentless

HE:

You awaken the tomb of my senses

and rekindle the flame I thought once lost

I want to crawl under your soft, sweet skin

only to consume your soul

until every inch of your being is mine

SHE:

The temptation of what we could have

is too much for my stubborn mind and fragile heart

to ignore any longer

Kiss me deeply

envelop me in the promise

of your embrace

until our mutual longing threatens

to overtake us

in the inevitable collision

I want to be

your someday

forever.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "R-rated"

“R-rated”

Be afraid when something laughs

near a bonfire

before the midnight ritual of

hanging gnomes has been

improperly conducted

Never slight a one-eyed jockey

in the shins

lest the transmission backfires

blinding you from the lovely shapes

dancing on the hood

Utter in whispers the last rumors you heard

about the corn spread

in dusty crop circles

depicting the return of

the despicable seaman

Waiting to take spaghetti noodles away

off the humps of weary camels

trying to pass through

the needle of playful smirking

ice caps.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Brokeback Lusted"

“Brokeback Lusted”

I’m not looking to make it into Heaven tonight

she said with a knowing smile

I just want someone to warm me up

and rev up my idle engine tonight

I’m not looking to get into Hell at the moment

I just want a good time

she said with a sly wink as she slowly licked her lips

Lord knows that I’ve already got the Devil

between my thighs

if you’d just take the time to look up my skirt

If I give into desire right now

and we share a moment

of inevitable intersection

would you still want me enough

To remember my name in the morning after?

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Last Beautiful Line"

“The Last Beautiful Line”

If you must go,

I ask only that you leave

a note

and use the front door

don’t bother looking back

If you must lie,

tell me that you never wanted me

and only watched in horror as

the wheels of deceit came crashing down

If you must dream,

let the oceans of your mind

envelop your restless heart

long enough to stifle the Indian summer

If you must die

allow me to write the words

of longing upon your heart

with my aching kiss and fervent touch

never to forget you

pouring over the last beautiful line

that was you.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Into The Sinking"

“Into The Sinking”

HE:

The room spins

my head feels as

it’s about to explode

as I sit in this chair

words slither from the

cracks of my mind

It’s so different

everything unusually dull and tainted

since you left

SHE:

I’ve lost my way a bit

nothing’s come easy

since I found the courage to walk out that door

and not look back

I honestly don’t miss you

you were the one addiction

that I had to break

although I’d be a liar if I didn’t admit

that there were things about you

that I still desperately crave

Like the way your skin feels when you were pressed against me

the warmth and safety of your ever-present embrace

and the way you made my heart thud with each gasping breath

whenever we kissed

These small stolen moments with you shared

keep me up at night

HE:

I wish that we could go

to simpler times

when we’d share a laugh

a simple glance

a fleeting touch

Back then, that’s all it took for you and me

the fire that brought us together has faded

without you, everything seems a heavy burden

and I don’t believe I’ve paid the price

Enough for you to pull me out and save me

from  the sinking.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund  Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Gathering Stones"

“Gathering Stones”

Thunder looming overhead

the springtime of my demise

draws nearer with each breath

to the point I can no longer bear it

The seething vantage point stares back

with hollow, crimson eyes

until the voice of despair

cackles with unbridled disdain

The world as I knew it is ending

as the grave calls to me in my unfit sleep

my arms grow weary from the fight

my strength is nothing now

So I smile and nod

and, without a single word,

gather stones to throw in into the storm

when my bright chasm is over.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "She Said"

“She Said”

She said

that she was tired of it all

was leaving everything behind

with nary a backward glance

It used to be so easy

to close her eyes

and dream of chasing the sunshine

in the middle of springtime

with everything in bloom

During the day

she visits his grave

and spends a few hours

in quiet conversation

She takes long walks now

her long hair blowing

wildly in the wind

as she smiles at

the people passing by

Then the night comes

with its silent allure

she lies in the bed

longing for his warmth

to return

If only she bid goodbye

before it was too late

for her heart

is past the break point.

Copyright:  2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Day"

“Day”

Nothing makes sense

the sun is shining backwards

I have acquired a taste for you

and well-placed sarcastic one-liners

Warmth emanates from the oddest places

a couple dumpster drives in an nearby alley

as rats scurry in haste lest they be trampled underfoot

random strangers exchange looks and knowingly snicker

As I lay in bed

thinking of all the things

that we could do

I grab my pants

and an old shirt

wash my dirty face

and head out the door

The phone begins to ring.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Burning of Forever"

"The Burning of Forever"

Dearest _________,

I cannot go on like this
while the sun fades
and silent pain washes over my broken heart
oh, if you could just see my eyes
before you had to say goodbye

Memories of you
haunt my sleep
and laugh in my face
in my lonely moments
of desperation

If I could burn a candle
and hold you close
once more
maybe I could learn

to stop the burning of forever
that threatens to swallow
the last vestiges of hope

how I love you still..

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Nothing Ventured But The Sky"

"Nothing Ventured But The Sky"

To tempt fate would be
impossibly foolish and yet
here I am again like the old hag
that I have so loathed to become

The velvet splendor of youth and possibility
is gone
behind me now like a meandering road
caked in ruin and despair

She was
only a brief glimpse
mere snapshots
to be certain
memorable yet fleeting
at once

The prettiest thing
about a woman
is her tongue

The sun and its veiled corpse
of unearned promises and obituaries
does nothing to stem the tide
of horror and unkempt deceit

Her mouth upon mine
tastes like ashes before the belfry tower
trapped in a cocoon of longing and
forbidden fruit

Until I awake
bathed in sweat and agony
dying and lonely
just another tick
on God's scoreboard.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Distance"

"The Distance"

Night is in bloom now
the stars streak across the sky
as the world is quiet
sleep does not come calling
the dream fades into

Jaded shards of black
broken glass and hollow screams
the bed, once warm and comforting
is now forlorn and desolate

I cannot give you
whatever it was you wanted
I cannot sing the lullaby
to tame your restless heart

All I ever gave was my love
and that was not good enough
please let me waste away
in the bitter taste of my sea of woe and regret

For if forever may come too late
my soul shall never see
the heaven that was to be
you and I.

Copyright: 2010, by Raymund Diaz Delizo