Poem: "Chasing The Sun"

"Chasing The Sun" *

If I look inside
and touch the dark
empty spaces
and feel cold

The clouds overhead
silently wait before
a storm that never comes
as the world
holds a collective

In the morning
you stand outside my door
waiting expectantly

You smile
as you take my hand
and whisper hope
into my unsuspecting ear

Beside you
I feel whole
without you
the ravages come
like vultures

I would do
anything for you
you warm my heart
and I am forever indebted

Though we cannot
be together
I shall be devoted
to you, beloved

I will never be afraid
to be the star
chasing your Sun.

* - title inspired by "Slide Away" (by Noel Gallagher)

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Angel"

"The Angel"

She looks down
at her fallen beloved
as he struggles to breathe

"I can save you still," the angel
whispered softly as she knelt down
her shimmery wings barely touching the ground

And her lover smiled, without a word
and he caressed her cheek
wiping the tear that fell upon
her beautiful face

As they kissed
for the last time
warmth filled her
once more
as he held her close
slowly dying

In the final moments
of their beautiful parting
she stood over him
and loving plucked a feather
placing it over his heart

As she leaned in
and whispered in
his ear:

"You may be gone
but never forgotten
and forever remembered
in the chambers of my heart
and soul"

As she took to the sky
and flew away
across the face of perfect
weeping Heaven.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Other"

"The Other"

"Once in the madhouse they came like specks of cinnamon." - Anne Sexton

The seconds tick away
as I glance at my watch
impatiently
waiting for you

There is a man
who loves you
he came by today
and asked

"What is it you want with her?"

I smiled, but said nothing
Your beloved does not know
could never fathom
the depths of my passion
and devotion to you

My dearest one
if I cannot be with you
I don't want to ever
see the sunrise
or feel breath in my lungs
again

You have stolen
pieces of me, darling
that I cannot ever get back

Must I be forced to live this way
unable to see in the darkness
with your precious light?

No, I suppose this is the way of things
now that you're lost and gone
I wish you well, love

But I'll always stand here
in front of your house
on your street
now deserted

Your faithful "other."

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Leaves and Silence"

"Leaves and Silence"

Walking outside
as the autumn cold
hits my face
my feet hitting the pavement

Not long ago
when the world
seemed so easy
and my heart
still believed

In silly things
like love
and happy endings
when the sun shone
its brightest

When I had you
in my life, dear
everything seemed so
much easier

Our parting
without a goodbye
has broken my heart
once more

Even though I know
we never can ever go back
I miss the way you loved me
and how you made me feel

So you're gone now
and every moment of joy
has faded but forever remembered
lost now
amid leaves and silence.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Nothing Left"

"Nothing Left"

As I sit here in front of my desk
staring at the blinking computer screen
my mind drifts to thoughts of you
as the words come
and my once cold heart
comes to life

My fingers on the keyboard
as the computer screen lights up
the words escape from unknown depths
in the same tiny room

You're gone
and there's nothing left
here for me
except memories of you
in my head

They repeat
like snippets of
a film that I've seen
a million times
but never remembered

The subtle beauty of your face
they way your eyes shone
the curvature of your lips
the soft contours
of your perfect shape

The rain begins to fall quietly
pitter-pattering against the window
as the bright neon signs cast
an eerie glow amidst the darkness

I go to the window
and quietly watch
the spectacle unfold

My heart breaking
more and more
by each passing moment.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Against"

"Against"

If I search
the glittering glow
of neon that dots
the night

If I walk the same
deserted streets
holding on
to false hope
lighter in hand
waiting to burn

If I sit alone
in the bed
empty and cold
my desperation
will wrap me up
in her perfect embrace

If I close my eyes
and dare imagine
what could have been

I'd hear your voice
feel your breath
lie with you
skin against skin

And everything I've ever known
would pale beside
your subtle beauty

Your love - too much
the intoxication
consumes me

As morning light comes
I wake up
with no one there
and the scent of you
lingering
imprinted on my heart
forever in shade.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Wishing For You"

"Wishing For You"

September morn
come 'round again
the wind makes
the trees sway
as the leaves
soon change color

Our room is empty
since you went away
the sheets unkempt
your scent lingering

As I sit in the same
old chair
in front of the blinking
computer screen

Waiting for the words
to come
that will make you see
somehow
make you stop in
your tracks

Last night
we had coffee
and talked for the last time

If I close my eyes
and let my thoughts drift off
of us alone
together

That special place
where we can never go
because you, my darling
belong to another

And I refuse to give in
to the temptation of
casting aside
my better angels

I need you
but I can never
be the one
for you, my dearest

I want you
but the secret garden
will be forever locked away

Our Eden
will never be
though I still
wish for you

My world's spinning
as you watch desperately
with love in your heart
as I silently fade into
beautiful shadow

How I love you still

And my forlorn heart
will cling to you
amidst the great divide
that will forever
be our guide.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Light The Way"

"Light The Way"

The night has passed
the clouds of despair and pain
that have threatened to
overtake our longing hearts
has gone away

Take my hand
and gaze at me
with that sultry look
that gets me every time

Tell me your secrets
share with me your
unspoken desires
and let the moment
take us where it will

Kiss me
with your aching lips
and let the sweetness
linger on my mouth

Take me
I want to feel
whole again

Take me to that place
where only you know how
Soaking wet
our bodies intertwine

And let the sounds
of our passionate discourse
be our guide
and light the way

To eternal bliss
as the candle burns
fervent and bright.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Breathe"

"Breathe"

The morning sun
shines brightly
illuminating
your beautiful contours

The former melancholy
of secret night and her
hidden devotions and
unknown desires
best left undisturbed
has faded

You gaze on me
so longingly
with those eyes
your lovely eyes

Lying in bed
with you
skin against skin
our bodies intertwined
your warmth is intoxicating

Your breath on my neck
pressed up against you
I can feel your heart beat
hard as a drum

I need you
like the sun needs the moon
and the stars need the
perfect expanse of sky

I could live a thousand years
and yet, I would never find
another one as beautiful as
you are to me

You've become the air
I so desperately long
to breathe.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Trouble With No"

"The Trouble With No"

The door swings open
as you leave
for the last time
as memory starts to fade
I hear the birds outside
chirping mournfully

Your cup of coffee
sits untouched on the counter
the morning paper
on the table unread

Last night
with you
was incredible

You decided
to wear a low cut top
and your favorite jeans
with your hair down

We went out to the park
and sat under the sky
we talked of the future
and watched the stars
as they faded and streaked
across the face of night

You took my hand
and whispered softly
of your desires and dreams
as we kissed over and over
our bodies pressed up against
one another

We went home
later that night
and you slipped
into something
more comfortable

The lights turned down low
you kissed me once
I turned away
trying to fight you off

But you wrapped your arms
around my waist and
pulled me onto you
and, before I could protest
you kissed me hard
and gazed with those
perfect eyes

And the rest
was enraptured
in sweet surrender.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Right Here, Now"

"Right Here, Now"

Alone
in front of this blinking
screen
staring at blank white
waiting for the words
to come

The room is empty
the bed is cold
everything is different
without your love
to fill my lonely spaces

I close my eyes
and imagine you
right here, now
and in that moment
we're together again

I touch your face
we lean in closer
I feel your breath
on my neck

As we kiss
the world stops
for an instant
my heart spins

I hear you
whispering
in my ear

I need you
I want you
please stay awhile
because you
and only you
make me whole

As our bodies meet
at the mutual intersection
as I lay against you
the heat rises

A moan escapes
as your legs part open
and the rhythm of our
sensual interlude
threatens to overtake us

I need you
I ache for you
I want you so badly
I can taste it

You are the night sky
and all the glittering stars

You are the sun
that shines brightly

You are my whole world
and forever will be.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Don't"

"Don't"

Time has passed slowly
the moment has lingered
for far too long
as the sky turns dark

The beauty of former
has faded against the tumult
against the wishes of the demons
lurking just beneath the cracks
waiting to surface

Gone is the way things
used to be
when the world made sense
and youth was on my side

As you walk away
the waters have receded
and faith weeps crystal tears
as my heart shatters
cast off
into oblivion

"Please don't go," I whisper desperately

How I need you still.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Under The Lights"

"Under The Lights"

The sun fades silently
as the sky waits
for the subtle beauty
of coming night

Discretion gives way
to desperate release
please, I beg you, take me
away with you

You have what I need
what I want
what I crave

Exploring the boundaries
pushing the envelope
under the lights.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo