Poem: "Chasing The Sun"

"Chasing The Sun" *

If I look inside
and touch the dark
empty spaces
and feel cold

The clouds overhead
silently wait before
a storm that never comes
as the world
holds a collective

In the morning
you stand outside my door
waiting expectantly

You smile
as you take my hand
and whisper hope
into my unsuspecting ear

Beside you
I feel whole
without you
the ravages come
like vultures

I would do
anything for you
you warm my heart
and I am forever indebted

Though we cannot
be together
I shall be devoted
to you, beloved

I will never be afraid
to be the star
chasing your Sun.

* - title inspired by "Slide Away" (by Noel Gallagher)

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Angel"

"The Angel"

She looks down
at her fallen beloved
as he struggles to breathe

"I can save you still," the angel
whispered softly as she knelt down
her shimmery wings barely touching the ground

And her lover smiled, without a word
and he caressed her cheek
wiping the tear that fell upon
her beautiful face

As they kissed
for the last time
warmth filled her
once more
as he held her close
slowly dying

In the final moments
of their beautiful parting
she stood over him
and loving plucked a feather
placing it over his heart

As she leaned in
and whispered in
his ear:

"You may be gone
but never forgotten
and forever remembered
in the chambers of my heart
and soul"

As she took to the sky
and flew away
across the face of perfect
weeping Heaven.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "The Other"

"The Other"

"Once in the madhouse they came like specks of cinnamon." - Anne Sexton

The seconds tick away
as I glance at my watch
impatiently
waiting for you

There is a man
who loves you
he came by today
and asked

"What is it you want with her?"

I smiled, but said nothing
Your beloved does not know
could never fathom
the depths of my passion
and devotion to you

My dearest one
if I cannot be with you
I don't want to ever
see the sunrise
or feel breath in my lungs
again

You have stolen
pieces of me, darling
that I cannot ever get back

Must I be forced to live this way
unable to see in the darkness
with your precious light?

No, I suppose this is the way of things
now that you're lost and gone
I wish you well, love

But I'll always stand here
in front of your house
on your street
now deserted

Your faithful "other."

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Leaves and Silence"

"Leaves and Silence"

Walking outside
as the autumn cold
hits my face
my feet hitting the pavement

Not long ago
when the world
seemed so easy
and my heart
still believed

In silly things
like love
and happy endings
when the sun shone
its brightest

When I had you
in my life, dear
everything seemed so
much easier

Our parting
without a goodbye
has broken my heart
once more

Even though I know
we never can ever go back
I miss the way you loved me
and how you made me feel

So you're gone now
and every moment of joy
has faded but forever remembered
lost now
amid leaves and silence.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Nothing Left"

"Nothing Left"

As I sit here in front of my desk
staring at the blinking computer screen
my mind drifts to thoughts of you
as the words come
and my once cold heart
comes to life

My fingers on the keyboard
as the computer screen lights up
the words escape from unknown depths
in the same tiny room

You're gone
and there's nothing left
here for me
except memories of you
in my head

They repeat
like snippets of
a film that I've seen
a million times
but never remembered

The subtle beauty of your face
they way your eyes shone
the curvature of your lips
the soft contours
of your perfect shape

The rain begins to fall quietly
pitter-pattering against the window
as the bright neon signs cast
an eerie glow amidst the darkness

I go to the window
and quietly watch
the spectacle unfold

My heart breaking
more and more
by each passing moment.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Against"

"Against"

If I search
the glittering glow
of neon that dots
the night

If I walk the same
deserted streets
holding on
to false hope
lighter in hand
waiting to burn

If I sit alone
in the bed
empty and cold
my desperation
will wrap me up
in her perfect embrace

If I close my eyes
and dare imagine
what could have been

I'd hear your voice
feel your breath
lie with you
skin against skin

And everything I've ever known
would pale beside
your subtle beauty

Your love - too much
the intoxication
consumes me

As morning light comes
I wake up
with no one there
and the scent of you
lingering
imprinted on my heart
forever in shade.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo

Poem: "Wishing For You"

"Wishing For You"

September morn
come 'round again
the wind makes
the trees sway
as the leaves
soon change color

Our room is empty
since you went away
the sheets unkempt
your scent lingering

As I sit in the same
old chair
in front of the blinking
computer screen

Waiting for the words
to come
that will make you see
somehow
make you stop in
your tracks

Last night
we had coffee
and talked for the last time

If I close my eyes
and let my thoughts drift off
of us alone
together

That special place
where we can never go
because you, my darling
belong to another

And I refuse to give in
to the temptation of
casting aside
my better angels

I need you
but I can never
be the one
for you, my dearest

I want you
but the secret garden
will be forever locked away

Our Eden
will never be
though I still
wish for you

My world's spinning
as you watch desperately
with love in your heart
as I silently fade into
beautiful shadow

How I love you still

And my forlorn heart
will cling to you
amidst the great divide
that will forever
be our guide.

Copyright: 2009, by Raymund Diaz Delizo